FACING MYSELF Remembering I alone have control over myself.

FACING MYSELF THIS MORNING WAS TOUGH:

THERE IT WAS IN BLACK NUMBERS 184.6 I was 182.3 ... may not sound like a lot... BUT I FEEL IT!!!!....

This morning I stepped on the scale to survey the damage from the last week.. Though my eating has not been horrible it has not been perfect.. exercising portion control not as on par as it should be. Exercising.. nope... water drinking.. uhmmm a little ... healthy eating choices for the most part except for the 3 pieces of chocolate cake over the last week and the coffee cake attack Saturday morning at my mothers.. totally a nervous food attack.. almost like an out of body experience.. I saw myself do it.. but could not stop me.. I wonder if I was expecting something bad to happen... ( Saturday night as recently posted was a disaster) ... So I got out of bed this morning and faced the music.. STEP ONE. start logging food again religiously.. STEP 2... Exercise starting today with first round of PT STEP 3. forgive myself STEP 4.. STEP 4 is the HARDEST thing to do.. yet I know if I do not do that somehow I will go in the wrong direction.. I will start the endless fall back to the old me.. see how easy it can happen... ??? let the guard down.. slip back into old habits... very easy... ONLY THIS TIME... I found the strength to turn back.. make a plan.. move forward... .. FOOD LOG! WATER! ( water substitute) EXERCISE! HONESTY! Remembering I alone have control over myself! STOP WORRYING ABOUT THE THINGS I CAN NOT CONTROL OR CHANGE... WORK ON WHAT I CAN CHANGE and take CONFIDENCE from those Changes.. JULY 12th 2007~
WISH ME WELL
WISH YOU WELL TOO