Monday, June 30, 2008


today my blog buddy Katschi gave me an award this is so sweet..

IT is an I would like to thank the Academy award.. that is just so nice...

here are the rules..

1. Pick five (5) blogs that you consider deserve this award for their creativity, design, interesting material, and also for contributing to the blogging community, no matter what language.

2. Each award has to have the name of the author and also a link to his or her blog to be visited by everyone.

3. Each award winner has to show the award and put the name and link to the blog that has given her or him the award itself.Award-winner and the one who has given the prize have to show the link of “Arte y Pico” blog, so everyone will know the origin of this award (

and this is so tough for me because I love all my buddies.. each of you..

but today I am going to pick 5 ..
1 SCALE JUNKIE Always full of sunshine and always a wonderful motivator
2. TIPPY TO DIETER I recently discovered her blog and love it.. full of great advice and alway a good dose of encouragement
3 FIT BY 40 probably the most busiest blog buddie I know .. her friendship and encouragement help me stay the course
4 Buddah Girl's World all I can say is that I love this woman.. she cracks me up every day...
5 CURVY GIRL this young lady is motivation central.. she tells you whats going on.. how she copes with it.. and often times has some great menu ideas.. and even if she is having a hard time she still ROCK ON.. I love this blog.
Wish me well wish you well too


So you say to yourself it is time... time to make the big changes.. so you embark on a healthier you campaign.. you trail blaze .. you count calories.. you look at nutritional labels.. you wise up and become smarter. You are on the way to a healthier self.
In this weight loss market we are bombarded with ideas and opinions as to what we should do to make ourselves better. OF course on the one hand the size acceptance group says dammit all and accept you for you.. but if you flip the channel you see every ad for Nutri system, Jenny Craig, WW, Fat burners .. promises galore to help you lose your fat ass. Promises with catches along with the bells and whistles.. I almost got caught up in two things this week... one being this FULL BAR interesting but I simply can not afford this product to help me reach my goal .. and the real fact is .. I have to depend on myself to achieve my goals.
Yesterday I found that Weight loss hypnotherapy blog .. you can read about that in my post from Thursday something else that is far to pricey. There are so many things out there viaing for our attention promising us things that can truly be attained by doing just a few steps.
1- Eating for ONE and eating in a manner that features healthy choices i.e. portion control and good nutrition .. you know what that is and you know it does not involve McDonald's or Wendy's or KFC think whole foods, fresh veggies , lean protein and fresh fruit
2- exercise moderately through out the week ( still have yet to master this one) instead of exercising your eyeballs watching TV , go for a short walk.. every step matters.
3- Have faith in yourself that you can attain your goals in a healthy long term manner.. with out faith in yourself and your ability then you will not achieve anything positive.. with faith your options are limitless.
4- Every time you stumble or trip .. get back up.. quitters never win.. WINNERS NEVER QUIT!!!
Still those outside forces are tempting.. promising you bodies of athletes , promising you flat bellies.. thinner thighs, beauty.. etc.. perhaps looking at yourself naked and assessing where you need to make those changes and working to make those changes is the best way to do things.. So what if you are 350 pounds.. look at yourself.. naked.. you can see your body.. and you can change your body.. nothing is hopeless, no one is hopeless.. If you want to use tools to help you achieve your goals .. WONDERFUL a great program is CHANGE ONE via Reader's Digest can be a great asset .. With that program basically you are changing one thing at a time until you develop a whole new set of habits and attitudes regarding weight.. good program if you ask me.. good tools.. If you feel bariatric surgery is your only hope.. then go see a doctor.. get the ball rolling.. time is a wasting.. though you have time to change not doing anything is sentencing yourself to an early death.. sorry.. not trying to step on toes.. but fact is the larger you are.. the less time on this planet you will have.. statistically speaking this is so.. and though I hate statistics sometimes facts are facts.. and we just have to accept that. So I say .. be on a plan... start something.. and if you screw up so what.. START AGAIN!!! Now what about those of you that really have no plans to lose weight.. or no desire.. Fine.. you are probably not reading this anyhow.. I am not calling you unhealthy.. fat people can be healthy.. but this is for those of us that do want to change.. that feel overwhelmed.. that are scared.. and scarred from past failures No matter what your size.. where you are .. look at your body for what you have right now.. and don't let someone tell you how to change it with empty promises.. You change it with action..just do not be afraid to look at yourself naked.. I know what its like to look at myself with revulsion.. but if I really look... if I see my eyes.. my nose.. my hair.. and work my way down.. I can start seeing possibilities.. Look at yourself as if you are a fine stately old building that just needs to be updated and renovated.. and start tearing out the old a bit at a time and replacing it with new.. New Attitude.. new Exercise.. new faith.. it can be done..

Friday, June 27, 2008


I LOVE FRIDAY.. The weekend is full of promise and hope and relaxation... I look forward to that. I look forward to being with my husband and going places and doing things.. even the littlest things make me very happy on the weekend..

Call me goofy but I joined this THE NEW THIN ME WEIGHT LOSS -HYPNOSIS for WEIGHT LOSS BLOG I think anything that can create a positive in your life is great and thats why I signed up for the free weight loss info.. you get this great email sort of from yourself.. talking about being thin and helping you visualize being healthier and being in control.. to me there is a wealth of tools on the internet and I am bound and determined to take advantage of all I can find.. this might be a
really good motivating tool is my thought... yeah I checked it out more and they want you to buy something it is not free at all.. but i like those emails to self.. they might be helpful.. who knows..
Here is my first email to me from this website.. I kinda like it.
Hi Honi,
It's me, the thin you. I've been right here inside of you for your entire life, and I have decided that it is time for me to do my part in making our thin dreams become a reality.
You see, we do not need to struggle to be thin, seriously, all we need to do is talk more so that we remember just how good it feels to be thin.
I'll show you what I mean.I want you to take a moment.Now,imagine waking uptomorrow morning,having the exact body we want. The exact weight and the exact shape.
First take a deep breath and relax.
Okay.Now really think about this.
-Tight clothes because we want them to be!-Excited to look in the mirror at our figure! (it's okay, we're the only ones looking) -In complete control of the foods we eat!-Happy about our body!-Craving fruit and water!-Exhilarated to step on the scale!!!
Come on Honi, doesn't it sound like fun?Let's do it.
I love you,
The Thin Honi
I thought that was kinda neat actually
I also looked into this MY WEIGHT LOSS DIARY it is kinda like a my space site in a way..
and along the way I found
FLIP THE SWITCH (link may or may not work)
and of course my
THE SKINNY ON ICECREAM (link may or may not work)
WAS: 183.9 as of this Monday
WILL BE: 132

Thursday, June 26, 2008




Abraham Lincoln: bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other one thing.
George Washington Carver: 99% of the failures come from people who have the habit of making excuses.
Victor E. Frankl: ... Everything can be taken from a man but one thing; the last of the human freedoms-to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one’s own way.
Earl Nightingale: A great attitude does much more than turn on the lights in our worlds; it seems to magically connect us to all sorts of serendipitous opportunities that were somehow absent before the change.
"A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort."-- Herm Albright (1876 - 1944)
"It is easy enough to be pleasant,When life flows by like a song,But the man worth while is one who will smile,When everything goes dead wrong.-- Ella Wheeler Wilcox (1850-1919), American Author and Poet
"Your living is determined not so much by what life brings you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens."-- Lewis L. Dunnington (Author)
Dr. Viktor E. Frankl ~~~The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me is more important than facts.... We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes.
Sasha Azevedo ~~~I certainly don't regret my experiences because without them, I couldn't imagine who or where I would be today. Life is an amazing gift to those who have overcome great obstacles, and attitude is everything!
Scale day tommorow

Tuesday, June 24, 2008


When I was born.. I was guilty... I popped out.. Oy! I caused my mother pain was probably my very first thought.. on the other hand, it could have been .. damn its cold out here!
When I was a kid I tended to day dream.. I felt guilty because I was not like the other kids so there for I had to be a disappointment to my parents.
When I was a kid I never looked like anyone else.. my hair was not right, my body was not right and if it was it was only for a minute.. there was nothing about me that was right.. this was obviously my fault... not the way nature made me.. I felt guilty.
As a teenager in my early teens I never quiet got it .. I never got being cool.. I liked my rock and roll that a friend introduced me too.. I liked the escapism not the generalities that everyone else who was cool liked.. I was never invited to parties.. I was never with the in crowd.. Surely my tastes were my fault.. again.. I felt guilty.
As I rebelled in my own unique way .. I ended up in boarding school for a better academic chance.. and I thrived but goodness I cost my parents so much money so much heartache for all my failures in school. GUILTY!
I graduated and grew up and kept gaining then losing weight then gaining weight and never actually finding a place I could stay at for long with out binging and trying to find peace.. I coped with life by over eating ... GUILTY!!!!
Love avoided me but I always loved from a distance.. for I was never thin enough, pretty enough , right enough , perfect enough and some of that I was actually guilty of because I created my situation by allowing myself to be overweight.. GUILTY!~
and as an adult in mid life i realized what is guilt but self induced trauma. WHO NEEDS TRAUMA??? we all make decisions.. and with those decisions come consequences.. being able to accept those consequences and move on is a life with out guilt..
Then there are those things which we have no control over, other's behaviors etc.. feeling Guilty for someone's reaction to you is a waste of time.. GUILT is WASTE.. a waste of time.
Feeling guilty because other people do not help out or pitch in.. a a waste also.. in life we can do what we can do and then we simply have to let it go. You can not change what was.. you can only control what is to the best of your ability and when it comes down to it.. there really is no Control except .. well except for your acceptance that Life is uncontrolable so manage what you can .. and enjoy the ride.. it is a short one indeed and the bumps and grinds of daily living have to be dealt with.. whatever they are..
LIVE GUILT FREE.. Move on....
NOW...... A game....
One Word
This is definitely a challenge to try-- You can only type One Word! Not as easy as you might think. , change the answers to suit you and put it in your blog. It's really hard to only use one word answers. ONLY ONE WORD!
1. Where is your cell phone? POCKET
2. Where is your significant other? HOME
3. Your hair color? BLACKISH
4. Your mother? SHOPPING
5. Your father? HEAVEN
6. Your favorite thing? SMILES
7. Your dream last night? ZERO
8. Your dream/goal? HEALTH
9. The room you're in? CLOSET
10. Your hobby? COMPUTER
11. Your fear? HATE
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? RETIRED
13. Where were you last night? HOME
14. What you're not? MEAN
15. Muffins? CHOCOLATE
16. One of your wish list items? HEALTHY
17. Where you grew up? ALABAMA
18. The last thing you did? PASTE
19. What are you wearing? BLACK
20. Your TV? DRAWER
21. Your pets? BEAUTIFUL
22.Your computer? FUN
23. Your life? ROCKIN'
24. Your mood? STRESSED
25. Missing someone ? YEP
26. Your car? MATRIX
27. Something you're not wearing? GLASSES
28. Favorite store? DOG
29. Your summer? SWELTERING
30. Love someone? ALWAYS
31. Your favorite color? PURPLE
32. When is the last time you laughed? TODAY
33. Last time you cried? NIGHT


Well Friday morning I was all over the scale as we know.. now I am back down to 183.8 I went all the way up to 188.9 at one point..
I had a bit of a bad blow last night... nothing wrong I just had a cereal snack on the new Kashi Honey Sunshine so I was a bit disappointed in myself.. but I never went over my points.. Yesterday was a zoo day at work so I never finished eating my lunch and was famished by the time I got home..
For dinner we had Parmesan crusted talapia and fresh green beans sauteed in olive oil with fresh basil and a little garlic spice mix we have...
I have a long LONG day at work today so I am going to have a hot lunch.. (baked potato) and plenty of fresh raw veggies and fruit.. I will have sprinkle cheese in the potato for my dairy and protein and a yogurt for additional dairy and protein. I bring plenty of fruit on days like this so I can snack on that through out the long day.. I probably will get home around 730ish... and then you guys know what I am going to watch.. yep.. thats right.. AMERICA's Got Talent...
We did a short walk last night.. and it started raining so we ran part of the way home.. yes.. you heard me right.. RAN.. lol..
Well time to go log the food..
Keeping it short for a Tuesday
Wish me well
Wish you well too

Monday, June 23, 2008


What happened to running outside on a early summer's evening..the heat from the day winding down to the stifling stillness of night.. dressed in a tank top ,shorts and tennis shoes.. jar in hand .. to capture fire flies.. with out the need of protection from insect stings or sunscreen. ?? where have those days gone?
What happened too playing outside.. and laughing so hard until your belly ached and your cheeks hurt... ?
What happened to Saturday Jaunts with my Dad and summer business trips to really fun places.. resting quietly in my memory and laughing and silly thoughts often shared.. and enjoyed..
What happened to my banana seat neon yellow bicycle with the long safety flag from McDonald's??? discarded and broken in some old dump...
What happened to hot dogs and hamburger on the grill nearly every summer night... gone the way of weight watchers now..
What happened to thick steaks on Monday night each bite dipped in ketchup... gone to every now and then.. if at all... red meat is not too good for you now...
What happened to hearing my mom sing in community plays... put one day she thought she was too old too sing.. I have never known why.. neither has she...
What happened to turning our bicycles upside and down and pretending we were making ice cream by turning the pedals..lost in the old remembrances scattered in a childhood long ago...
What happened to the deck of cards we carefully weaved in the spokes of our bikes so that they would sound like the sputter of motorcycle? gone the way of some old dump I would guess...
What happened to going on family trips and stretching out in the rear window ledge ( YES I DID THAT AS A KID) ... SEAT BELTS happened which I guess is a good thing..
What happened to Cracker Jacks and great Tattoos.. gone the way of smaller boxes and no tattoos...
What happened to the Brady Bunch, the Partridge Family, The Monkees, HR Puffinstuff, Land of the Lost, black and white Little Lulu cartoons... ? Some have gone the way of TVLAND and can be watched still..
What happened to hanging out with the neighborhood kids on a hot summer night and cutting through the bush's after 9pm to go home... hmm CHILD PREDATORS happened...
Where did those days of wandering all around the mall go.. ( THE ONLY MALL IN THOSE YEARS ) and pretending we were mannequins in dad's furniture store disappear too... like the season things change...
What happened to real double stick Popsicles where calories did not matter and if you really wanted too you could break the Popsicle apart and share it with a friend after a full fun day of swimming... I miss my swimming days...
What happened to the country club grill with cheeseburgers and french fries.. and friends.. friends who only knew you in the summer time at the country club... ? hmmm it is still there serving out those burgers to other kids .. wrapped in towels and ringing wet..
What happened to secretive teenage chats with friends who only knew you via the phone.. because your coolness was so uncool that it might rub off on them at school.. and god forbid they walk with you at school...
What happened to taking the first spin around the block with my brand new and hard earned drivers license....
What happened to KISS, VAN HALEN, TED NUGENT, ROD STEWART, LED ZEPPLIN, THE WHO... though no devotion was greater than to KISS... where did that all go... ( THANKFULLY all the music is still around... compared to the rot that is out there now...
What happened to my friends from boarding school.. who made me laugh and laugh and taught me what real friendship was... especially when the local boys at the skating rink made fun of my large size and ungraceful moves on skates... when friends wiped away tear drops and replaced them with hugs..
What happened to graduation.. and bits of college.. and the freedom of my 20s that I thought where chains that bound me..
but they were my beginnings as a young adult learning my way in this world..
What happened to the tiny 2 day old baby in my arms... who sipped a water bottle and gazed intently at my face as if I knew some great secret of the universe... my first niece...She is a graduate with honors from Pharmacy school and just got engaged to her boyfriend.. who is doing his residency now...
What happened to that chunky cheeked bright eyed sweetness.. all baby girl... who is in her third year of college with eyes towards a degree in special education... My second niece...
What happened to my Buddha baby.. round and curly headed with a laugh that made me laugh and cry at the same time.. a fearless toddler wanderer who then loved animals and at 3 years old declared she was going to be an animal doctor... She .. niece number 3 will be in her last year of high school this coming fall.. with an eye towards college and attaining a veterinary degree..
Where are the 7 months since our wedding.. and the sweetness of our vows.. it too is another jewel of my memory
Those days all of those days are jewels of my memories...
Tell me...
Wish me well
Wish you well too
That is it ..For a Monday in Sunny Hot Alabama...

Sunday, June 22, 2008


GOOD NEWS or not! for some reason i am retaining fluid.. so the doc put me on the water pill and guess what .. 24 hours later I lost 4 pounds... I went up to 188.7 and yesterday morning I was 184.7... So I am taking the pill at dinner time for a while to see if we can get the fluid issue under control and watching my sodium level too and drinking a lot of water.. to help me flush things along.. and I thought I went potty before... I got up 5 times Friday night to tinkle.. but I felt so MUCH better yesterday it was amazing... the difference... so hopefully now the weight will chug down... and my butt will get smaller as well as the rest of me.. as that is the over all plan..
Feeling Happy..
Wish me well
Wish you well too.
Will post again either Monday or Tuesday.

Friday, June 20, 2008



IF you are on WW here is a coupon for any SMART ONES






RANDY PAUSCH CMU address May 2008 to graduating class.



CURRENT: 186.8 UGHHH!!! bummed about that gain..

Now here is the weird thing.. just for the hell of it I got back on the scale 10 minutes later.. I was up another pound.. I gained a pound in 10 minutes.. I wonder if I am having a fluid issue.. I did have that a while back.. think I might call the doctor for a diuretic and see if thats what it is.. I used to take one YEARS ago.. about the time I was getting the migrain headaches.. I really think something hormonal is going on with me.. I am not trying to make excuses but I honestly do no think one has weight fluctuations with in minutes.. I weighed again and the scale went up another half a pound... My eating is right on target and I walked 3 times this week which is more than I have done in a long time... So the plan... call the doc .. get the pill and just keep on keeping on...









Thursday, June 19, 2008


ME I am angry at me.. well I am really not like hit myself in the head what kind of fool am I angry .. I am just perplexed.. sigh... I weighed Wednesday morning.. ( ALL TOGETHER NOW>>>> HONI YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO WEIGH ONCE A WEEK ON A FRIDAY NOT EVERY OTHER DAY DINGBAT!!!!! ) I am up nearly a pound... whats the deal with that.. I suffer gladly the new weight of the scale.. it actually weighs you 2 pounds more than a doctors scale.. So Monday morning Instead of weighing maybe 183 like I thought I might on the old scale but which I was never sure of because that scale was fried ... So I weighed on Sunday and Monday and I weighed 185.9 now today I am 186.7 what the FUCK GIVES...Tuesday night I did not have dinner until nearly 9 pm.. Steve really wanted to go out for Chinese but said lets just eat at home .. I made myself tomato cheese toast for dinner..and then I weigh yesterday.. and poof I am up ...... craptastic on that.. I should have just had the damn chinese food at least it would have been a well earned pound... shesh...
Well my official weigh day is Tommorow... We did walk last night and we will walk tonight.. I am going to keep dinner light tonight and last night we did a veggie night.. We will have some home grown green beans ( Steve's office manager brought them to us) sauted lightly in olive oil with a vidalia onion.. we ate some raw cauliflower too.. Tonight I probably will do a tomato sandwich.. for dinner.. the last couple of nights for walking the weather has been yummy.. low humidity and really nice..On Saturday We were going to the blueberry festival in Brewton Alabama , thats near Mobile.. Steve's office manager is going so she is going to bring us back some Blueberry plants so we can grow our own... anyhow we decided that a 400 mile day on the bike might be a bit much so we are going to go here instead for the morning it is not as far but still a nice ride... we like this flea market .. lots of Puppies.. me loves my puppies.. speaking of which Cookie saw the vet yesterday some little furry butt has to go on a diet she is 10 pounds overweight and for a doggie of her size that not good.. so Cookie is going on Weight Control Beniful and will be going on more walks ( GOOD FOR ME TOO) and playing more Frisbee too..
..We might do a movie marathon if the weather is bad as it is suppose to be Saturday afternoon.. we shall see..
Then on Sunday morning we are going here on a another puppy hunt.. ohh and for the curious .. we usually do use the motorcycle.. so if we find a pup it would be sort of hard to bring her or him home.. but we figure we will cross that bridge should we find the right pup ever.. So we have a nice weekend planned which is good... Friday can not get here fast enough for my liking... Well time to go log my food intake on WW ... trying to be accurate but being frustrated instead.. I am going to use the 185.9 weight on my weight log on WW online ... Wednesday I did adjust my weight and got a message that I needed to recalculate my points so I did.. and now instead of 23 points they moved me to 22 .. so dusting off and going from there..I think I am obsessing over this stupid number issue.. sheesh.
I did that WEIGHT VIEW THING.. and here were my results.. not a great picture of me but its kinda neat to see this ME with 50 pounds gone
ON to something that makes me smile ..
AMERICA's GOT TALENT .. I love this stuff look at the videos here and watch it on TV...
here are my two favorites so far:
.Wish me well
Wish you well too
Yay Friday is tomorrow !!!!!

Wednesday, June 18, 2008


It is Wednesday... woo hoo.. okay not really.. woo hoos are for Friday lol..
but hey Wednesday is closer to Friday than Tuesday so maybe Wednesday can get a WOO.. ..
I did not get to walk last night I worked late.. so Tonight we are either going to the club to exercise or walking.. at least we are doing something so that is good.. Steve joins me in the walking so thats good too.. We did really good on Monday night .. he wanted to walk last night but after getting home after 7pm and trying to unwind a bit before bed I was not up to it... so we decided that nights I do not work late are better to walk ....
Water... I am finding I really have a fondness for water.. it makes me feel really good.. I never thought I would say that about water but when I drink water I drink less diet soda.. I feel that my skin feels better.. I am more hydrated and less likely to have a headache by the end of the work day. I find that my body just feels better with water.. I never believed those comments until I actually started drinking it.. and I drink it straight up.. no crystal light no propell powders.. just plain old fashioned nutritionist gave Steve and I a Britia water pitcher for wedding gift and that thing gets refilled 2 or 3 times a day now... so I am now of the school.. and a graduate of.. WATER IS GOOD FOR YOU.. it really does make you feel healthier and better.. Learn to drink it.. and with in weeks you will feel a difference in your body.
So many times I have been asked.. what do you eat in a typical day.
so here is my menu for Tuesday remember it was a late work day so nothing major for dinner
Breakfast 700 am
1 packet QuakerWeight Control Instant oatmeal Banana nut flavor ( I bought the variety pack box this time)
Snack 10 am
APPLE and a light string cheese colby cheddar
Lunch 12 pm
Lenders Whole wheat Bagel with light cream cheese and baby cucumber
Mixed fresh fruit ( watermelon, blue berries, cantaloupe)
Activia Light Yogurt
a little Diet Sunkist
Fiber one bar around 230 pm
cherries 230pm
Triscuits and 1 wedge laughing cow cheese 4 30 pm
Dinner 730 pm
Light cheese toast with fresh basil and sliced tomato
WW chocolate ice cream sandwich
I spread things out during the day especially on late days so I do not come home starving when I do come home starving it is terrible....
Well thats it for a Wednesday
Wish me well
wish you well too

Tuesday, June 17, 2008


It is always Delicate to discuss things that might be hurtful to it discussing one's weight.. or some other issue.
In the blog world.. we go by what the author says..and each of us gathers information regarding that person. Sometimes we read things.. and we reach out and encourage each other.. Sometimes we read things and simply share a good laugh or a commonality. Sometimes we cry with our friends .. Friends we have yet to meet and possibly never will have the pleasure of meeting them in person. However, We forge these friendships in the blogging world based on what we hope is honesty. Every now and then we run across something we question. Sometimes no one says a word but silently wonders if that poster is being honest. Sometimes we wonder if we are about to be scammed but we might keep that to ourselves just assuming we are overly suspicious.... Yet when several readers of the same posts .. turn to each other at various times and ask each other what do they think... well... It makes you wonder if we are being played as sympathy suckers being drawn into a world that does not exist.. and most of us with good hearts reach out with out thinking is this person being honest? we ASSUME they are being honest. What a pity to question and then perhaps discover they were being played. Scammed for money. .. I am not pointing fingers .. or laying out names.. or anything.. I am just making a blanket statement.. it really is a pity that there are those out there that would stoop so low as to play on people's good nature.. crying sob story after sob story with not a lick of truth to a letter in said post. I wish they would think twice about being dishonest.. for there is a great wealth of good folk out there.. on similar journeys just trying to reach out to each other.. and develop those bonds of friendship, networking and support through the trial and error of getting healthier and that includes mental health as well.... so if your path is one of deception find another venue. Life sucks.. and it is hard.. and you have to deal with what ever shit you have to deal with.. This forum.. These weight loss blogs and getting healthy blogs are not the neighborhood for desperate wanders like you..
Just a thought..
Wish me well
Wish you well too..

PS I did not go to the gym BUT!!!! Steve picked me up from work and we went home and went for a long walk .. I was a sweaty mess so I Must have done something good for myself.. then we had BBq chicken for dinner and green peas .. I love baby peas lol..

Monday, June 16, 2008


Survived the weekend... My new scale came in.. really cool and easy to read... will weigh officially on Friday Morning.. still waiting for my Kozy and WW points counter.. that should be in soon I hope... as I was saying I survived the Saturday birthday celebration very cute and fun.. followed by Sunday Father's day etc... Taking mom to the doctor this morning.. will let you know how that goes..
Did any of you guys see Oprah Friday ... BEST LIFE CHALLENGE Hope those folks are still doing well and getting healthier.. well the day is drawing on.. and time for me to moisy to get mom and then to work..
Will add more later today!
IT's later and the doctor said mom should do great in the surgery.. she is a perfect candidate. He told he to quit saying she was old and that 75 is the new 55 .. so if thats the case then 56 ( my husbands age) is the new 36 and 46 (my age in Nov.) would make me the new 26 ... HA .. 26 damn.. I like dropping 20 years.. lol... I like my doctors math.. Seriously though he said mom should do fine and that she needs to focus on the positive instead of everything being a sign that she is going to die... she even tried to talk the doctor out of what he was telling her.. he told her too that aprehension is normal before this surgery but that things are much improved in the last 18 years ( since her last heart surgery) for heart surgery... So I felt good with what he said.. he also said that she was going to have to be happy living... which I thought was great since she thinks she is going to be dieing...
Happy Monday
Wish me well
wish you well too.

Friday, June 13, 2008


Well 400 sounds like a mighty big number.. 400 posts.. I have had a lot to say apparently.. and sadly for some of you.. I still have a lot to say.. .. gladly for me though.. I can open up in my own little universe and share away.. I can redecorate and do whatever I want here.. I like that. As you can see I updated my slide show with pictures from Israel. I still say to each of you.. pack your bag and go.. it is nothing like you think it is and everything you hope it will be plus.


Well it is Friday and normally that is my weigh day.. but who in the heck said I was normal.. not me... so I am not weighing today .. because.. well l don't have to if I don't want too.. and I am still waiting on the arrival of my new scale.. which should be here any day..

We are looking into have some yard work done .. had some folks come by to give estimates yesterday so hopefully we will do that.. it is stuff we have wanted to do for YEARS... they also do house cleaning so .. it would be nice to have a company come in once or twice a month for yard clean up and house cleaning.. Steve tends the yard mostly by himself.. I help very little .. I should help more... he just has that great green thumb and I tend to kill things the more I mess with them.. lol..

.. We have a nice weekend planned .. we are going to celebrate Drew's ( Steve's grandson) 2nd birthday on Saturday.. and on Sunday we will have breakfast there to celebrate Father's Day.. we also are going to stop by the cemetery.. the cemetery where my dad is buried is really beautiful. We like walking around there believe it or not.. we like to look at all the different headstones.. read those interesting bits of people's history.. I don't like drama at the cemetery so I prefer going with just Steve... when we take mom it becomes .. well drama.. and though I do feel bad about not taking her .. sometimes there are things I simply must do for myself and Steve.. so why do I feel this sense of guilt.. lol.. oh well..

I have had a great eating week right on target and under my points and no bonus points either.. of course I did not exercise my fat ass.. and I know friends this is a problem.. and as soon as I resolve this problem the weight will come off faster I know this.. I really do.. I just have to find a place to include it so that I actually will stick with it.. You know like drinking water.. I had to put it in a place and now it is habit and I do it.. and I have stuck with it.. which that alone is amazing.. I also think I liked the idea of rewarding myself with the new water bottle.. so maybe if I use that attitude with exercise it might work too.. I see so many of you out there doing things.. walking.. swimming, doing dvds.. I know its not impossible to do and yes .. yes I know I have a beautiful facility which is on my way to work and home from work .. to exercise at.... ST VINCENT's 119 check this place out.. it rocks.. so why don't I??? should I dare make a commitment to start going starting Monday the 16th.. is it possible to do that.. or will this be one of excuses boiling up.. well I do have to go with mom to the doctor Monday and then back to work.. however on my way home in the late afternoon I could stop and exercise .. after 530.. fact is I prefer doing it after work then before work.. Should I dare make that commitment today on June 13th 2008 .. that I will use the benefit of 119? I should.. shouldn't I ? I should just type it out loud.. and commit to it.. look at me .. look at how I am hesitating to this commitment... Can I do this.. will I let something deter me.. drive me off course.. ??? (DEEP BREATH) .... thinking..... NO.. Monday june 16th 2008 I will be at St. Vincents 119 to swim or walk on the track or use the machines.. I will DO SOMETHING for at least 30 minutes on Monday.. I will do this.. it is not out of my way.. it is right there.. it is mine to do!

So with that in mind... have a great weekend and happy father's day ~

Wish me well

Wish you well too!

Thursday, June 12, 2008


SHHHESH.. it is hot here.. and steamy.. and humid and tooo tooo warm...
I found a really interesting site for today .. its called WALKSCORE.COM You put in your address and it tells you if your neighborhood is a good walking neighborhood.. alas mine scored a 5 out of 100.. mine .. well is a poor walking neighborhood.. you can walk in my neighborhood but there is no place to walk too.. no parks, stores etc...You are lucky if you have that...
Well that is it for another Super Steamy hot Thursday (with a hope of Thunder Storms ) ..
Wish me well
Wish you well too.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008


I think I like it.. rather we think we like it.. We purchased a new mattress on Sunday ... its very comfy and much better than our old one.. this has one of those memory foam pads on it.. its a little warm but I do think I am going to enjoy sleeping on this one.. I know I did not move much last night so that is always a good sign... and when I woke up my back did not feel bad.. neck still feels messed up but over all back was not stiff or anything like it was before.. I think I have to work on the pillow situation.. figuring out how to place the pillow .. what works.. what feels good.. they gave us 2 of those memory foam pillows.. Steve loves his.. mine I like .. its great for watching TV or playing on my PSP but I am not so keen on it to sleep on.. I still like good old squishy feather pillows...
I am looking forward to the new WW points counter and keeper .. wish they had that last month when I got the one I ended up with... but thats cool.. I will have that in a few days not to mention my new WW scale .. oddly enough I am looking foward to that too... OHHHHHHHHHH and to treat myself since I am now an official water drinker I bought me a fancy water bottle its by Camelbak it's called the Better Bottle I got it and I LOVE IT... I am going to get a Kozy for it to keep my water cool.. yay me .. lol .. I wish I could have found one in purple but blue .. it works.. and the Kozy for it will be blue too... how ridiculous am I .. geez.. but hey I figure this is a good reward for being a good water drinker..see my biggest complaint with water bottles.. good ones is that the water never stays cool.. I don't like COLD water I like cool water lol.. okay I will shut up about water now... but it really is nifty buying tools that help you succeed .... what are some of your tools you have bought along the way to better health?
Oh and as the weeks draw closer I will be asking you guys for tips to handle the hospital.. Moms surgery is July 15th and I want to be prepared with everything I can be to survive the upcoming stress.. So in a later post any advice on that topic will be so appreciated.. I will remind you guys as the time draws near.. I go with mom to the doctor on Monday..
Well it is a sticky yucky Wednesday in good old Alabama..
Wish me well
Wish you well too!!!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

SO it is TUESDAY..

Every now and then I have no idea what to title my posts
is a tip..
NEVER .. NEVER EVER SNEEZE WITH YOGURT IN YOUR MOUTH.. lol I will leave that to your imagination.. but if you are not quick it can be very messy if you are a mouth sneezer :-) ...
Well I ordered this and this ..
finally decided to send my old scale to the old scale grave yard where ever that is... hopefully they will both arrive soon...
I have been roaming around online... and one that that just makes me kinda sad is noticing how many weight loss links are dead.. let me be more specific .. blogs.. I often wonder what happens to folks.. why do they end it.. Somtimes when I blog I really have nothing to talk about.. like today.. but I peruse the net and look for a topic as I have time to do so..
I try to post at least 4-5 times a week. For me I guess it is theraputic.. and I love my comments they really keep me strong and inspired.. even when I feel like giving up they help keep me focused.. not to mention just typing what I feel.. I find myself wondering what happened to these folks.. why did they just go away.. why did they give up on themselves.. now.. I know perhaps some of them found another path and will lose weight just find with out their blogs..and I am sure there are many like that... but what about those that just say FUCK IT.. then just throw in the towel for the last time and just give up...
Resiliance is a hard facet to come by.. but in being resiliant and keeping oneself motivated and going in a postive direction.. well.. for myself.. though it may be a struggle it is so worth it.. I just feel bad when I see blogs die.. for no other reason than someone just gives up.. Maybe the realization that weight loss is not a goal.. weight loss is a life time adventure and a life time of learning and adapting to life...
For most of us weight is the symptom of a bigger issue when we resolve that issue.. or at least address it.. then change can happen.. lets face it .. like the old saying goes.. if do what you have always done you will get what you have always gotten... so if we readjust our thinking and develop a different route then things start changing.. and change is an amazing thing... when we feel it happening with in ourselves.. to me giving up is not an option I will try and try again until I succeed.. I hope you will too.. I hope I never discover your blog shattered by just giving up.. NEVER GIVE UP!!!

Friday, June 6, 2008

FRIDAY: Weekend blather, Some Links, WHAT THE HELL IS WITH MY SCALE...??, Dinner this Week Pictures and Beginning Healthy Fitness

Well that drunk feeling from that beastly miagraine has slow subsided...
I am so thankful its Friday...
We are going Mattress shopping this weekend YAY.. and we have to go find a birthday day gift for Steve's Grandson he is the BIG 2 .. we are also making the Farmer's Markets round this weekend too.. Gonna go on a fruit hunt and might be do some Peach or blueberry picking as well...
Cool Links
START: 190.4
LAST WEEK: 183.8
THIS WEEK: 183 I am randomly picking this weight I could not get the scale to weigh me a consistant weight.. I went from 183 all the way to 185.5 .. and then I kept getting EE for error.. so go figure.. I have had that friggin scale for about 10 years.. . maybe its time for a new scale... in fact my sweet husband said go to Bed Bath and Beyond and get a new scale with one of our wedding gift cards he thinks the battery in this scale might be shot since once it gives you a weight it shuts off barely letting you see the numbers lol.. that should have been a sign to me lol.. anyhow .. we still have about 10 gift cards left from the wedding we have not used yet..

FOOD PICTURES ~ Here is Dinner from Tuesday night I stirfried chicken with a little olive oil , greek seasoning and garlic pepper seasoning and a little Bountiful Tuscon ( not sure if that is the name of not of the dressing) dressing.. then I mixed it with the Zuch, Squash, and Vidalia onion which had been sauted in olive oil.. very lightly....

Diet SUNKIST over Sonic crushed there any other drink I ask you ??
So I am all about not exercising.. not really on purpose but because I just never find what I really like and I never stick with it long enough to make it habit.. I finally started drinking water at least 5 days a week if not more.. that was a huge habit to start for me..and somewhere along the way.. the time is now actually I need to find my way to fitness... funny enough I got this newsletter this morning.. and here are some ideas from the PREVENTION NEWSLETTER
Now onto info from my Prevention E newsletter on beginning fitness and exercise.
Weight Loss Fitness Program Even I like this stuff.
Best Workouts for Beginners
A no-experience-needed routine to zap calories, get strong, and boost health
Chris Freytag , Fitness expert Chris Freytag is the author of Shortcuts to Big Weight Loss and Move to Lose. Read her blog for more healthy living tips, or check out her Prevention fitness DVDs. EXCERPT FROM ARTICLE
1. Go slow and steady ~ Surprise: Panting and wheezing reduces your odds of success. An Iowa State University study found that overweight women enjoyed walking more at a pace they chose than when researchers bumped up the intensity even 10% over that speed. Pick a level that feels good and you'll be more likely to exercise regularly.
2. Keep it low impact ~Less stress on joints helps to avoid injuries, especially if you have a lot of weight to lose. Try walking--it's easy, affordable, and great for your heart and waistline. Swimming, cycling, and elliptical training are also good joint-friendly options.
3. Inch up ~Gradually Start with 10 minutes 3 or 4 days a week, then increase your time by 5 minutes each week until you're clocking at least 30 minutes per session.
4. Listen to your body ~Fatigue, burning in your muscles, and slight breathlessness are normal. But gasping for air, dizziness, fainting, nausea, and sharp or shooting pain are signals to stop exercising and check with your doctor. To make over your body, remember the story of the tortoise and the hare. Baby steps work!
Chris Freytag is a board member of the American Council on Exercise, the star of many Prevention Fitness Systems DVDs, and author of Prevention's Shortcuts to Big Weight Loss (
That's it for a HOT FRIDAY in Birmingham , Alabama~
Wish me well
Wish you well too

Thursday, June 5, 2008


Yesterday I had the pleasure of seeing a patient of ours.. who is 97 .. You would think perhaps she is in her 80s or younger if you were to hear her talk.. She is very quick witted and full of life.. Sometimes I wonder how that happens.. if it is just a case of good genes ( and I am not talking Calvin) or is it just the luck of the draw. She lives with her son and has a good life.. It was a thrill to see her. I knew her because at the time I worked at the JCC she was member there and I would see her often when she came in for senior adult lunchs years ago.. age has not affected her one bit.
This is a great seque into my topic today.. how to be age wise as we improve ourselves.. At different stages in our lives our body needs different things.. We always need a balanced diet but by increasing certain nutrients we help our bodies run better.. for example the links I am enclosing give you some detailed ideas when you wander into your 40s as I am right now.. actually I am on the downside of the 40s.. soon to be 46...
Here is something I want you to think about... I saw it on weight loss board..
At this groups Weight loss meetings they asked the class how do they spell SUCCESS
Here is how I spell it..
How do you spell SUCCESS?? post and let me know.
I get the PREVENTION newsletter and there are some links I wish to share with you:
Last night I helped Steve in the garage work on something.. I held the spot light.. about 15 minutes later the familiar squiggly lines of a migraine roared into the peripheral vision only iI was blindsided in my right eye this time and in the top of my left.. it was a sick feeling as I ran upstairs got my contacts out.. and the temporary flashes grew more vivid and i swallowed four advil and my bc pill and tried not to panic... where was this stupid thing coming from I had one a few weeks ago on a sunday brought on by a bright light and here it was happening again .. that was the only thing I could trace it too was the light I was holding for Steve and then put the light down to go help me ... so the light was shining on me near my right eye.. all I can imagine is that was the trigger..
I called the doc this morning after my crowning and asked that this be put in my record.. I want to keep track of them and see how often and what triggers them.. if they start coming more frequently I am going in to see him.. prior to my Sept check up.. otherwise I am just going to note when they attack.. I hate them ..I usually do not get sick in my stomach .. and the quicker I act when they arrive the better off I am .. right now I just wish someone could flick off the sun for the day.. its too bright outside.. I am here at my office.. my sweet husband just brought me a fork so I could poke my tater to nuke it so I can have my baked (nuked) potato for lunch today at noon... he is meeting his daughter at the chinese joint for lunch .. it near my office which is good..
Well today I got crowned.. no big deal... yay..

and tomorrow I Get scaled so ..
Wish me well
Wish you well too!!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008


LOOKING into the future I can see me , thinner , healthier and stronger.. I can see me at my goal or close to it... and then I have to ask myself.. what next? for the goal is just a midway point, the real challenge is maintaining my accomplishment. I know its a bit sad to realize .. but losing the weight is not the hardest part of this experience.. it is keeping it off.. it is making this become as natural as the air we breath. It is living the new you or me to the fullest extent.. I invision that I won't keep a food log forever, I invision that I will still keep my blog flowing... I invision that I will develop a exercise program I will stick with to insure flexibility and comfort through out my life. I invision that I will always have to be aware of what I am doing to keep things in focus. I invision that I can never go back to the old wrong way of eating. I invision being a success.

Here are suggestions to help you keep the weight off that you've worked so hard to lose, courtesy of the American Heart Association:

  • Understand what works best for you -- such as what rewards best motivate you, what tempts you most, and what helps you resist those temptations.
  • Be realistic about how much weight you should lose.
    Maintain a good balance of calories taken in versus calories burned.
  • Get enough exercise. Even a brisk daily walk can help you keep those pounds off.
  • Keep notes and records of your food intake and daily activity.
  • Plan your meals, and make healthy food choices at the grocery.
  • Don't weigh yourself more than once a week.
  • Plan ahead for holidays, special occasions, and other times when you may be likely to splurge and take in additional calories

****Borrowed from DISCOVERY HEALTH

Wish me well

Wish you well too!

Tuesday, June 3, 2008


YEP she being me.. the weekend went well.. Mom enjoyed the dinner and her special donation to our synagogue.. .. If any of you have a Village Tavern in your neighborhood or town ... check it out!
We had a great dinner, I opted for the spinach salad with dressing on the side.. and I had green beans ( YUMMY) and I had to have some garlic mashed potatoes Sara shared them with me.. and we shared a small piece of cake too.. that was really sweet, I got to have both things I wanted with out being too wasteful.. Sara taught me an interesting trick.. Once you are done eating the amount you want, dump water on it so you wont sit there mindlessly eating things.. So I had my portion of the potatoes she had a portion and the rest she dumped water on.. we took a slice of Birthday cake , I had 4 bites, she had a few bites and then I dumped water on the rest of our slice of cake. I thought that was pretty novel..
I planted one tomato plant Sunday morning.. I am going to let Steve do the other two because where he wants them planted the earth is rocky so its hard to dig it up.. my hands had blisters on them by the time I had just planted one plant.. so that was enough digging for me... and I even managed to get 98% of the laundry done too so that made me pretty happy .. not to mention I cleaned out a closet and I found the letter from Harvey Korman I had been looking for too.. that letter is 26 years old.. It made me smile to read it again.. I need to do something to protect it.. I think I am going to get some of those plastic sleeves and put the letter in there to protect it.
Steve was out of town over the weekend he came home last night.. He went to New Orleans for the IDDBA show.. that's the International Dairy, Deli, Bakery Association show.. take a gander at this Steve said the show is HUGE about 3 city blocks in one room.. Everything you can imagine is being displayed.. from


to and more. ohhhh and lets not forget the cake decorating contest ...

. Certainly not a healthy eaters paradise... Steve said it really is amazing when you see all the food out there that we consume. He said there are good choices there but just seeing the sweets and meats and cheeses and artisan breads is truly sensory overload at its best or worst .. depending on how you look at it...
Well its a average Tuesday .. Eating is going well.. things are for the moment quiet.. and that my friends is how I like it!!!!
Late last night my mom left me a message on my cell phone.. that phone is right by my bed I guess I was too pooped to hear it.. or I might have been sitting on the steps waiting for Steve to come up.. watching our pups anxiously nudge at the the door with wagging tails for their dad to open it so they could greet him with all their wild exuberance...Last night my oldest sister's Mother in Law passed away.. She was a sweet woman..though I did not know her well.. I would see her and her husband ( who is still living) from time to time at various family functions. . She died last night .. she was 88.. She was truly a southern gem. During WWII she worked for our country working at various agencies to support our soldiers. Most of her life was spent in a small town in S.C. raising a family and helping her husband run a clothing store... which is still there and running quietly in this southern town. My brother in law , I am sure is devastated.. anyone who has their parents and is well into their 50s is so lucky.. I hope he knows that.. and he had both parents..up until last night..
Death is an odd thing.. not all deaths are tragic.. When you witness a loved one suffering to the end as in the case of my cousins seeing their mom die back in august. That death was tragic, when you lose a loved one in an auto accident , as I lost my father.. that is tragic... but when a life is well lived as in the case of my grandmother who was 95 when she passed away... that is a celebration of life.. sad.. but its a quiet goodbye.. as is the death of this woman.. who will be deeply missed by my sister, her husband , his sibling, my niece and countless others..
Though not able to attend she knew her youngest grand daughter graduated from Pharmacy school 2 weeks ago.. She was at the beach a week or so ago.. not doing well but still knowing where she was ... and then.. last night.. she was in the hospital...and around 11 30 or so... there was soft goodbye.. I can only hope that they celebrate her life.. and the wonderful things she did..rather than focus on the sadness.. her life was a life well lived in a small southern town... though the last several years were hard due to her declining health . In the last few days.. she was not feeling well.. and making comments letting others know she knew the end was close by... I wish all the family peace and may they be comforted by the blanket of warm memories always..

Welcoming comittee at my office this morning:

Wish me well
Wish you well too..