FAMILY FROM OUR WEDDING

Friday, May 25, 2007

EXCELLENT DOCTOR VISIT

YAY!! Everything went so well today at the Dr.s office.. he was so pleased.. he told me that I have not weighed this since 2002 ( 187) I told him all I had been doing.. and dumb me forgot my book I have been making with my food logs, graphs etc... My blood Pressure was excellent 122/68 my heart rate was excellent... I am getting blood work done in Oct.. to check cholesteral and such. Had the Mams grammed and that was well.. it just was.. lets leave it at that.. Glad I did it.. more glad its over.. and thrilled that they remain attatched to my chest.. though I did worry there a few times....
My Dr. and I talked for a while.. He was asking me what I was doing.. and then he posed a really interesting question to me.. he asked me.. which is more bothersome the word Obese or Fat.. I said well this is how I look at it now.. I was Morbidly Obese by the medical charts.. I am border line Morbidly Obese and Obese now... Soon I will be Obese/ Overweight.. and then I will be Overweight/ Normal and maybe even normal one day by the medical charts...SO to me its far worse to be Morbidly Obese or Obese than someone just saying I am fat.. Morbidly obese is more of a medical term as Obese is. and I find those words to be cold... and frightening.. I do... I really do. I find them to be life threatening.. I find them to be words that one day will no longer be part of the definition of how people see me and how the medical community views me. Another good thing I learned today we discussed my goal weight and it seriously realistic.. or did I need to shoot for a lower goal.... and GUESS what.. my goal weight of 132 is right on the money.. If I was petite and short ( I am 4'11) then It would be closer to under 120.. but considering I am not that..I am a large frame... today he examined my ankles and wrists and officially determined I am Large framed... and liked that 132 goal.. I love it when my Dr. smiles and does not have that serious theres a problem here face.. When he walked in the room I told him.. ~~before we get started I want to thank you for motivating me to change my life...~~~~ and he looked at me as if to say what are you talking about.. I reminded him of our December conversation .. and he laughed and said.. AHHHHHHHHH I threatened you... it was funny.. but I just so do not want to go on meds... He also asked me what happens after the wedding.???. we decided that the goal of between 10 and 20 more pounds before the wedding was reasonable.. and I looked at him.. and said.. I will keep going to my nutritionist and keep going... I should have explained more clearly that the wedding and weight loss are 2 seperate things.. I am not doing this so I look good for my wedding .. I started doing this before I was even engaged.. the wedding is a bonus event.. another chapter in my life.. the weight loss.. well.. is the core of this book of mine... for you see.. how can I create more chapters in my life.. if the bindings and spine of the book are weak and struggling . So I am recreating myself.. and once I reach my goal.. I am going to have to carefully change and adapt.. to my new life style.. as I am doing now.. it will always be a continious cycle of change....when I get to the point of maintaining my weight he wants me to up my caloric intake from 1200-1300 calories to 1600- 1800 for maintainence and that is including exercise to maintain... so those are my goals.. Next time I go I am going to bring my book too. Today was a good day.. each day is a better day..
Wish me well
Wish you well too..
Have a nice Memorial Holiday weekend..

3 comments:

Bethany said...

I feel like a bit of an ass saying this to a grown woman I have never met but...
Honi I am so damn proud of you!! You are doing great!

Coco said...

WooHoo!!!!! That is SO AWESOME!!! I can't see how things could have gone better, and I, too, am proud of you . . . I'm slow on the blogging,even the commenting (stuff happening again just when I started over!), but you are still inspiring me . . . I LOVE your attitude, Honi!!! ;~)

FatMom said...

Wow...that's the doctor visit every fat person wants! You inspire the rest of us, Honi! Gooooooood for you!