FAMILY FROM OUR WEDDING

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

TUESDAY NEWS and a QUIZZ of sorts and an OPINION NEEDED

FOOD FIT is a great link I recieve their newsletter and always find useful information check it out...
A picture of Cookie and Lucky on the bed.. yes Lucky has discovered the bed.. I thought this was cute how they were laying together Cookie had her paws on Lucky... this was this morning ...


I have been perusing a lot of blogs lately asking questions from what has made you fat, to what has fat prevented you from doing...
There are things that fat has prevented me from doing... going on long hikes.. walking up rocky areas for fear of losing my balance.. wearing a bikini... although I know of a lot of large woman who do not care and will wear whatever they want.. I for one am not that free .. just can not allow myself that freedom I do not think its attractive... so I started thinking and if I compiled a list .. here is what I would have.
Fat or fate kept me from being married at a younger age and having a family..
( thats a loaded statement.. should I blame fat for not getting married at a young age.. or fate? either way.. what I have now is right for me.. but it was not exactly how I had things planned when I was younger)
Fat or fear kept me hiding... I think a lot of the time growing up .. I liked hiding behind the fat because it was like wall that no one could penatrate.. sure I was made fun of.. but if I ate the pain went away.. its a twisted logic but one I used for many years..
Fat or fate often makes people think I am NOT as bright as I really am.. I think with fat, people assume someone is not that quick on the draw.. maybe slovenly or slow... I know from my own experience I once had a lawyer say about me as he was writing a letter of reccomendation that I was a bit slow.. ( U BET I NEVER USED THAT LETTER) * he did not say those words but thats how they came across. He refered to my going to a special boarding school in florida because of my learning issues.. (Vanguard School, Lake Wales Fla changed my life.. I went from being a failing student to an A honor roll student and graduated as one of the valadictorians of my class .. yes it was only a class of 14.. but I did surpass a lot of expectations and preconcived notions about me. I highly reccomend Vanguard for children and teens with learning differences.. ) I might not be bright when it comes to numbers that do not involve a scale.. but trust me.. I am far brighter than he was ever aware of.. and no .. he is no longer my lawyer.
Fat kept my mother and myself fighting.. My first diet was at 10 years old.. why they did that to me? I have no idea.. yes I needed to lose 20 pounds but perhaps encouraging me to go for walks or ride my bike or enjoy healthy snacks.. with a desert here and there.. not taking everything away and limiting me.. hmm Fat made me angry.. angry at myself because I was different from the other kids and simply did not have the key for the door to fit in. So fat became my hideaway.. Sure you could say hey why didnt u just watch what you ate.. or why is Fat still an issue you are an adult.. you know what to do.. why do you still do battle ? well.. well... I wish I had the answer .. but Fat.. well its been with me for a long time.. Eating and I.. well.. its a familiar story to us all.. When I am good.. I am fantastic.. when I am bad.. well.. the results lie in my fat. FAT TAUGHT ME WELL HOW TO HATE MYSELF..fat taught me patience with myself too.. and even in some form LOVE..
Fat kept me excluded from certain groups. Fat kept me away from a lot of stylish clothes and shoes. Fat nearly broke my body.. Fat told me I was negative. Fat weighs me down physically but allows me to soar in my mind and heart..
FAT IS NOT MY FATE . Soon I will SOAR physically by exercising more and feeling stronger.. I am not a Fat basher.. I am simply stating what Fat is to me.
Fat has made me a stronger person not a weaker one.. I have had to look the demon in the face.. the demon being the kids who taunted me for being fat and not attractive. Fat has made me compassionate and understanding. Fat has made me aware of differences and tolerant of others short commings. Fat has taught me patience. I KNOW THAT I AM FAR MORE THAN THE SUM OF MY POUNDS...
So what has Fat taught you.. tell me.. both the good and the bad..
What role has fat played in your life?
NEED YOUR OPINION AM SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING GOING BACK TO WEIGHT WATCHERS ONLINE FOR THE CHANGE .. AND INTERESTED IN DOING A CORE FLEX COMBO... WHEN I DID WEIGHT WATCHERS ONLINE ABOUT 7 YEARS AGO THERE WAS NO CORE PROGRAM IF I REMEMBER CORRECTLY.. ANYHOW.. LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK.. I LIKE THE PRICE OF THE ONLINE PROGRAM AND THE TOOLS TOO. WHEN WAS DOING IT LAST TIME I STARTED APRIL OF 2001 I LOST A LITTLE OVER 30 POUNDS ... WHAT STOPPED ME YOU MIGHT WANT TO KNOW... WELL IN NOVEMBER OF 2001 THATS WHEN MY DAD'S ACCIDENT HAPPENED.. AND I GAVE UP.. I DON'T KNOW WHY I GAVE UP.. I WISH I KNEW.. BUT.. WELL ANYHOW.. AM TRYING TO GET REMOTIVATED TO FINISH THIS THING ONCE AND FOR ALL.. THE LOSING PART.. I KNOW THE MAINTAINING PART WILL BE A LIFETIME EVENT.. wait a second thats not what i mean lol.. ( I think I watch too much LIFETIME lol) I meant Life style event LOL...sigh...
THATS IT FOR TUESDAY~
WISH ME WELL
WISH YOU WELL TOO!

5 comments:

Twix said...

Fat has shown the light of truth about how most people are toward other people regardless of whether fat is a key factor or not. I hope that makes sense!

Grumpy Chair said...

Good post Honi. I have come to terms with why I am fat and why I continue to want to stay fat but they don't justify all the things being fat has prevented me from doing.

I too have thought about joining weight watchers on line (so no meetings). I will be interested in what you decide.

You are such a little information dynamo - thanks for another great link to foodfit.

buddha_girl said...

Screw that idiot lawyer. He was a dunce.

40 by 40 said...

Great post! I do ww flex on my own and I really like it.It's easy to do with "real life". For me, it has been the only plan I can stick to. I don't know much about core though..but would be happy to lend support!

Dee said...

I'm a believer in WW. I've never used the on-line program, but give it a shot!