FAMILY FROM OUR WEDDING

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

VOICES IN MY HEAD

So I am still thinking about going on the fasting program.. though contemplating it very lightly now.. I feel for me the best bet is to do what I was doing , logging food, eating 1200 calories a day.. and starting to exercise and develop healthier habits.. its basic simple and sweet. yet then there is the other voice.. the voice saying. you know .. if you did this fast.. your world.. would change quicker.. the world to getting smaller would be here faster.. and then the other voice is back saying .. Honi, its not about the destination.. its about the ride.. what you learn along the way is what will take you through the rest of your life.. Sure being smaller will be great.. but what will you take along the way.. what will you learn if all you are doing is being on a liquid diet.. what will you learn about portion control.. what will you learn about your strength and capibilities if you go the quicker route. I think your birthday present to yourself needs to be very simple.. go back to what works.. go back to where you get an education . don't give in.. and don't think you can not achieve your goals your way.. Lets face it Honi.. quick fixes work. but if you do not learn new habits to replace the old ones.. well then you are stuck with the old habits.. and old habits are like old clothes.. you can either keep them and wear them again and again.. or toss them out.. OTHER VOICE: Yeah but, if I do this quickly I can reach my goal in say 12 weeks as opposed to 12 more months.. and they have a maintainence program.. and then the other voice comes back again.... but Honi. sure that sounds good.. but once again I ask you what happens along the way.. what do you learn.. what do you feel.... where is the education in it all? you are not making changes you are simply limiting your calorie intake to about 800 calories a day.. You are not learning to cope with emotions.. you are not learning to "say when" ,you are not learning anything and not learning is a true waste of time. Look at you. you maintained for all this time.. pretty soon the wedding will be here and over.. then its quiet.. then you start fresh with Mayo Clinic and counting calories and you go back to learning and reiterating all that you have learned thus far.. you become smarter and wiser and ultimitely you succeed for the rest of your life.. Other voice: "sigh".. well maybe you are right maybe a quick fix is not so quick after all....so those are the voices in my head.
Now I have a favor to ask of each of you... There is a birthday present I want from each of you...
On Thursday I am going to be 45... Older than most of you that read my blog.. I want you to promise me that when You are 45 you will not be looking back and saying to yourselves.. where did the time go.. why didn't I just lose the weight once and for all.. be able to look back and say look at me.. look how far I have come.. look how healthy I am .. look how active I am .. thats the gift I want from each of you.. If you are 45 and older.. commit to yourself that by your next birthday you will be 30 - 50 pounds lighter.. and so forth down the road until you reach your goal.. it is never to late to reach a goal.. We can do this.. even when we hit the rough patches and the decsion making we can do this..

Tommorow: THE CANDY DEVIL WILL BE LEAVING MY HOUSE TONIGHT!

Wish me well
Wish you well too

5 comments:

Lady T said...

u know...thats strong...bc i am pretty sure that if i were weeks before a wedding, i would be pulling out all stops....probably making some dumb decisions too. you are wise here....(nodding head).....

regarding your present: that is what i am trying to do now. i want to get control of this weight thing now....so moving forward it is not soo time consuming. and not a regret.....

last nite was my first tnie with my family...and i know moving forward its gonna be all the harder bc they've got sooo much crap! so much junk in the house that i have no bought or even walked down that grocery aisle in months........

now lies the true test....stick to what i learned on my own...dont fall back into old habits...dont put back on those ill fitting clothes.....

Blessings and well wishes....

Dee said...

Please listen to the voice that's talking you out of the liquid fast...because it's really really smart. :)

Big Pissy said...

Don't do the liquid fast....you know all the reasons why it's a bad idea. :)

I'm older than you....I'll be 51 in December. What you said to the younger women readers you have is so true!

I spent my 40's chubby out of shear laziness. I regret that now....

Lora said...

So often I've admired the younger bloggers who did not wait until the middle years to finally do something about their weight. Why did it take me so long to get the picture?? (I turned 50 this year ~)

Happy Birthday kiddo! Listen to that smart voice. You won't regret it!

Scale Junkie said...

I try to encourage the young ones to do it now and enjoy their 20's and 30's and not spend their 40's fighting this weight battle like I am.

I think that avoiding the liquid fast is such a smart thing. You are so right, you need to learn new healthy habits that will keep you thin and HEALTHY for a lifetime. Not just skinny for a few weeks. I think I said when you first mentioned it that I remember how quickly Oprah regained her weight from the Optifast. Its not worth the heartache.

From your 41 year old friend, thank you my almost 45 year old friend, us "older" bloggers need to stick together and encourage the younger ones to keep going and look to the few that are older than us and learn from them the same thing we are trying to teach the younger ones...it must stop here, it must stop now. The time to fight this weight battle is NOW!! I don't want to be in a hospital bed in another 10 years begging for one more second chance only to find out I'm out of second chances...I have to, WE HAVE TO do this NOW!! I'm right here with you and we will fight a good fight, side by side!

Happy Birthday Eve my dear sweet friend!