SHAPING MY FUTURE

"I shall shape my future. Whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me. Or I can be lost in the maze. My choice. My responsibility. Win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny." ~Anonymous

I like this quote.. it is empowering..
A while back I mentioned to y'all that I was asked to give a speech , lecture discussion etc.. to a class at my wellness center.. My nutritionist led the class I took in January and this is the September group.. she asked me talk about what keeps me motivated..
In light of all the difficulties I have had lately with the pain, planning for our upcoming wedding, the loss of my aunt.. and so forth.. ( life as we all know it ) ... I questioned if I was a good motivator.. If I had the right to give a discussion on Motivation.
So today I am creating what I will say next Monday in front of this class.. This will be video taped and presented to the morning class as well.
So here it goes.. watch me spin.. and then tell me what you think..
the title will be :

~BRICK WALLS MUST BE PLOWED THROUGH~

How we can build motivation even in difficult times.

I love this quote :

"I shall shape my future, whether I fail or succeed shall be no man's doing but my own. I am the force; I can clear any obstacle before me or I can be lost in the maze. My choice. My responsibility. Win or lose, only I hold the key to my destiny."

~Anonymous~

As with anything in life there is constant change. I feel that the hardest obstacle we have to learn is that change will always be there and that we have to learn to adapt to any situation. Those of us who have made the decision to change our lives by adopting better eating habits and better exercise habits have taken the first step to adapting to these changes.

Being an obese woman has not been easy and it was not a choice I made.. yes you can say to me Honi, you did not have to eat those cookies or that cake or that this or that... that was your choice to over eat.. while that may be true.. it was never a dream of mine to be the fat lady.. so with that in mine. I had to make some fresh decisions regarding how was I going to shape my future.

When met with an obstacle was I going to be to the old me and say well that cookie sure tastes better than walking on the track would.. um that ice cream sure would make the way that person is staring at me easier to take. Or would I say to myself I can make this better. I can do something different.

Just maybe if I am lucky an if I work at this.. I can finally after nearly 45 years understand that I am the one that has to adapt..

I am the one the one that has to be my constant motivator.

I am the one that has to believe in me each time the people that I have disappointed because of my obesity give up on me..

I still must believe in me..

and guess what?

this time..

it is DIFFERENT..

this time when I hit that proverbial brick wall something clicked.. something changed..

I learned that I could indeed maintain my weight..

I learned that through my obstacles , mine is chronic pain...I can come out a winner.. Look at me..

I am still obese I still have 50 pounds to go..

so am I success story?

YOU bet I am ..

You bet I am a success .

I am plowing through that brick wall..

yes it is wearing

yes eating would be so much easier..

indulging to extreme would be so easy..

for just a second it might even feel good..

but my body can't take it anymore.. my bones.. can't do it anymore.. my body said..

either you change or you die....

My doctor said to me December 18th 2006 either you make a change or I will put you on blood pressure medication in May. I gave in to myself and ate and ate and ate and ate.. whatever where ever however.. and then for a reason .. I am still not sure why..

I made an appointment here.

On January 22, 2007 I decided to live what I thought about..

I decided that I had to be a part of life .

I decided I had to learn that I can adapt my eating to every situation. I decided to learn and become better educated.

I took the 12 week class. I weighed in ever Monday night. I did well.. I started blogging for extra support and that for me has been a godsend because so many wonderful people out there get it.. So many people out there who I have yet to meet in person.. and most probably never will, totally get me.. totally understand . So I plow through that brick wall with :

1) SUPPORT

2) FAITH IN MYSELF

3) UNDERSTANDING THAT EVEN STAYING AT THE SAME WEIGHT FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME IS GOOD.

4) UNDERSTANDING THAT I MUST CONSTANTLY BE IN MOTION.. BE READY TO CHANGE .. BE EVER CHANGING IN ORDER FOR THIS TO BE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

That alone is difficult to accept..

I can never go back to how I ate before.. I have to move forward.

Eating healthy not only is good for all us.. but it is fun and that to me is another MOTIVATOR discovering new recipes or thinning out old ones.. I enjoy that plus my cooking skills improve.

Plowing through that brick wall is a matter of will.. it is a matter of desire and a matter of being tenacious. If you really want this.. you can do it.. Motivation is about the ability to adapt to change and be positive even if you feel a little uncomfortable in the process.

PLOW THROUGH YOUR BRICK WALL !

Alright that is it.. thats what I am going to say next Monday night and I might give out a recipe or two or something motivational.. maybe.. not sure yet..

Wish me well

Wish you well too