Who will you be?
So you are looking in the mirror once again casting a critical eye on what you see..,. Starting at the top... you can see smatterings of grey .. or perhaps more than smatterings... there are lines on your forehead that now have cousins lazily outlining your eyes.. your brows might need a pluck or two or a really good wax.. perhaps your entire face could use a clean up.. your neck is freckled where pale skin in winter used to reside.. and golden skin in summer glowed down your chest.. boobs don't sit where they used too.. and of course your entire body has never been what you really meant it to be.. the lumps and bumps and rolls and curves and lines of the person you .. YOU... this is your road map....it is your road map of what you have done and where you have been.. your body is always journaling you...
Or perhaps your skin still glows with that youthful fluidity... your hair rich in color caressess the flawless face .. no lines on your skin yet.. but deep down you know they will one day make their apperance .. for how can you say you have lived with out laugh lines to mark their territory...You wonder how you got to be the size you are ... and why can't you just lose the weight.. young woman.. when you are well passed your thirties.. you might be asking yourself the same thing.. the questions are always the same.. You want to wear that short skirt .. those high fashion pants with the spike healed shoes.. you want him to notice you.. not because you are a really swell friend but because you are a living breathing woman.. who meets the standards of attractiveness this world has demanded from us. but in the mirror there you are.. fleshy and filled out.. why am I still in this body.. you ask... so does your over 40 counterpart... only age rides with her.. youth still surrounds you...and youth is turning into to wisdom for her... You think about starvation.. you think about the binges... you think about the freedom of eating what ever you want... you think about the yelling in your head .. screaming at you for every imperfection that makes you whole... you think about the pounds and the ounces as you watch the scale teeter totter back and forth.. Who will you be?
Will you be a food whore.. and give in to eating more than you need.. ? Will you be a warrior and find a new way? Will you be the one that continues to change and can adapt to life changes while being fair with yourself? Will you think its far easier to grab those fries, eat those cookies , slice a wedge of cake and surpress how you feel? This is your choice.. it knows no age... it knows no skin color... it only has has much power over you as you give it.. WILL You be brave no matter what your age.. Will you be honest with yourself... at all costs... WILL YOU SET YOURSELF FREE.. by making the right choices...
WHO WILL YOU BE?
Monday, February 4, 2008
Who will you be?
Posted by Honi at 10:07 AM