SELF WITH SIZE

I hear it time and time again.. should I make a comment about my weight.. or if someone is saying.. boy she is big.. when discribing someone I will say big like me, or smaller or bigger.. what do you mean by big... and they always say.. NAWWWW you are Honi.. so that does not apply... I use myself as a marker often of size.. Sometimes I am so baffled when I will say something about my weight and I get that Nooooo you are Honi.. it just would not be right if you did not look like you ... not that anyone wishes me ill health mind you.. but this image .. this personification I have... where on earth did it come from.. that I am associated with my size... if I weighed 50 pounds less.. would I not be me? of course I would be me.. only .. 50 pounds thinner and most probably in better health. I am fully aware that none of these folks means anything about it with their comments.. they are used to me at this weight... so a thinner version is different... I know when a friend of mine lost close to 200 pounds it took me the longest time to get used to the new her.. she was still her.. she was who she always had been.. just healthier.. now... perhaps I had personified her in a certain place.. a certain way.. and when she on her own terms .. changed.. then I had to change my thoughts of who she was and not associate self with size...
It is shocking in a way to know that there are people that associate you at a certain weight.. that since they have known you .. you have always been a certian size.. and like one person said to me.. Queen Latifah would not be Queen Latifah if she were a size 1.. is that really true? does she lose something if she were to change her size dramatically? Will I lose something should I change my size dramatically??? Pounds.. thats what I will lose.. and hopefully i will gain a few extra years...
I know what I do to my body is .. I know my body does not need the junk I put into it.. and i know my body sends me signals all the time.. that it needs to be fueled with good food... that crap does nothing.. that crap does not make pain go away nor hurt disseapear.. .. Life is what it is with all its bumps and bruises.. the key is living... and accepting the now ... even if others are not sure what do with your now... So I am not afraid to change.. just curious in the way that people percieve me.. because now.. when I do make these changes.. their perceptions will yet again change.. and I hope for the better..
Until next time...

Fast HI

Sorry I have not been around much.. between being sick, work and the new puppy my hands have been so full.. hope everyone is doing well..
It is Status quo for me..will be back regularily soon.. you can always find me on Facebook..
until next time..

A WHOLE WEEK and I HAVE BEEN PRETTY QUIET...

Sorry for that, but between work and then new puppy I am lucky to have time to go to the bathroom...
I had a striking event occur during this week.. I can not go into details but I can tell you about it in a quiet way... Have you ever had the experience of percieving something one way but finding out it was not really that way at all.. Modeling yourself after something that did not really exist.. wanting something that really was not there? but all along you thought it was something real and dynamic.. for example... a friend who you thought was fantastic, who could do no wrong in your eyes.. suddenly you find out is an alcoholic.. and fragile just like the rest of us.. or the ideal married couple who have been together so long.. well really can not stand the sight of each other? So one day you are minding your own business and crash.. this realization tumbles into your world.. and you find you are really the lucky one.. the one who has it all.. its an odd feeling.. happy .. but sad.. striking and imposing because for so many years your believed there was something ideal.. when the dirtyness of life.. was a mainstay.. not blip... hmm funny in a way .. I think.. it makes me thankful for what I have.. and knowing that what I have I can be completely naked with .. naked in the sense of purely myself .. no barriers... thats good .. but from what have discovered this week.. I feel sad for what I thought was something that was actually nothing at all.. hmmm...
On too food.. food for me... NOt so good but not so bad..
Food for you...
Mixed Lettuce Salad with Cucumber Herb Vinaigrette
Grilled Pork Tenderloin & Apricot Salad
Lemon-Mint Snap Peas & Lima Beans
Prosciutto-Wrapped Asparagus
Strawberry-Rhubarb Strudel

PIZZA RECIPES
Black Bean Nacho Pizza
Eggplant Parmesan Pizza
Fennel, Goat Cheese & Ripe Olive Double-Crust Pizza
5 Beer & Pizza Pairings
More Pizza Recipes

UNTIL NEXT TIME

YOU GOTTA REACH AND TRY NEW THINGS

With Spring breezing in..
Here are some good grain rich recipes...
Spring Chicken with Barley..
Farrotto with Artichokes
Fresh Herb & Lemon Bulgur Pilaf
Toasted Quinoa Salad with Scallops & Snow Peas
Wheat Berry Pudding
This looks pretty interesting too its a Tofu parmigiana From as always EATINGWELL.com
Parmigiana at Its Best—This Tofu Parmigiana will change your mind about tofu! One of our tasters, who’s a big meat eater and not so into tofu, kept coming back for seconds every time we made it in the Test Kitchen. Instead of having a greasy, battered coating, the tofu “steaks” in our revamped Parmigiana are breaded and lightly pan-fried in just a small amount of oil then topped with part-skim mozzarella, fresh basil and your favorite marinara sauce.
Until next time.. Happy and Healthy cooking..

A GREAT WAY TO KEEP MOVING HAVE A PUPPY IN YOUR LIFE..

SO Far SO much Fun.. and she keeps me running too...

Great to be moving and playing with this little girl..

Her name is Shayna.. She and Cookie have hit it off.. She and Baz not so much..

Hope everyone is having a good week..

Until next time..

SHOULDA KNOWN BETTER

When my husband called me yesterday and said I have a surprise for you.... after a little proding he finally told me... he went to the bike shop to get a new tire for the bike, lo and behold, one of the guys who works there found two little pups... yellow labs..a male and a female about 7 weeks old.. precious.. My husband got a new tire for the bike and a puppy too... she is so sweet and kept us up last night 1 am 3 am and 6 am.. like a new baby.... only instead of a crib she has a crate in our bedroom, lined with newspaper 2 little chewies 2 new stuffed toys and a fluffy towel to snuggle into... I covered part of the crate with a towel to give her a sense of a den.. same thing we did with Cookie and it worked.. only Cookie was much sicker than this pup.. Steve seems to think she and her brother got away from someone... the guy who Steve got the pup from said he found her and her brother on the side of the road and waited for a while to see if someone was going to claim them but was afraid to leave them by the road by themselves..he was concerned that they had just been dumped there also.. thats why he had them at the shop.. She is the sweetest little girl.. and is trying to hard to make Cookie like her.. Baz does not seem too interested unless her food is involved.. I know we were talking about a number 3.. and I am guessing now we have one.. although Steve is still a bit hesitant and said we might be giving her to a friend of his ... and I have another friend who has a friend that would want her too.. I just do not want to get attatched if I am going to have to give her up.. We are taking her to the vet later this afternoon to make sure she is okay..
Life is good right now... enclosed are some recipes I thought might be fun to try..

THESE RECIPES ARE GOOD FOR YOUR VISION TOO!

EATING FOR YOUR EYES


10 Recipes for Better Vision:

Artichoke-Scrambled Eggs Benedict
Pork Chops with Orange & Fennel Salad
Broccoli with Caramelized Onions & Pine Nuts
Roasted Baby Bok Choy
Crispy Seitan Stir-Fry for Two
Shredded Turkey & Pinto Bean Burritos
Grilled Salmon with Mustard & Herbs
Spiced Turkey with Avocado-Grapefruit Relish
Mushroom, Sausage & Spinach Lasagna
Spinach & Tomato Omelet
More Antioxidant-Rich Recipes
Find more EatingWell recipes

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!

PISS OFF LIST

SO today is my PISS OFF LIST DAY

I STRONGLY DISLIKE THE CONSERVATIVE RADIO TALK SHOW HOSTESS.. I DISLIKE HER SO MUCH THAT i WOULD LIKE TO REPIERCE HER EARS VIA HER EYEBALLS..

WHY CAN'T I FIND GOOD TALK RADIO.. GOOD TALK RADIO BEING DISCUSSING BOTH SIDES IN AN OPEN FORUM... WTF AM TALKING ABOUT... I LIVE IN ALAFINGBAMA ... TIME TO INVEST IN SAT RADIO... SICK OF CONERVATIVE TALK RADIO BAHHHHHHHHH!!!!
IF YOU WANT TO GET IN MY LANE USING YOUR FUCKING INDICATOR , DON'T SWOOP IN AS MY FOOT IS ON THE GAS.
IF SOMEONE IS DRIVING IN FRONT OF YOU VERY SLOWLY AND YOU ARE ON A TWO LANE ROAD AND HAVE THE SAFE OPTION TO PASS THEM.. PLEEEEEEASEEEEE PASS THEM.. I AM NOT BIG ON DOING A TWO CAR PASS, IF YOU WOULD JUST GET A CLUE I COULD DO A SINGLE CAR PASS.. ASSHAT!!
ONCE AGAIN, I DO NOT KNOW WHAT INSURANCE YOU HAVE, I DO NOT HAVE INSURANCE ESP, YOU NEED TO KNOW YOUR OWN INFORMATION AND SHARE THAT INFORMATION WITH ME. I WILL BE HAPPY TO HELP YOU TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY BUT COPING AN ATTITUDE WITH ME WHEN I RUN OUT OF IDEAS REGARDING YOUR INSURANCE SCORES YOU NO POINTS IN MY BOOK.. I DO THE BEST I CAN .. BUT I DO NOT KNOW IT ALL.. CONTRARY TO APPARENT POPULAR BELIEF...
thats my piss off list for today..
thank you for sharing this moment with me..
Until next time...

Oh and by the way ..
Turkey meatballs
Make them
Use them
Love them..
We used them in spagetti the other night,
Lean ground turkey
bread crumbs
1 egg
and some shredded romano cheese..
yummmy